frustration game

A few years ago, when I decided (and it was a decision) that this creative path in life was the one for me, I started writing about my experiences. Call it journaling, blogging, venting - whatever floats your boat. I thought I would share with you my first entry, it’s a new year after all, it’s makes you reflective of beginnings.

‘So today, the very day when I started this blog….I have officially joined the Frustration Game. The game that everyone in this creative world is constantly playing. A game of balancing dreams, hopes and expectations with reality.

The contract I was banking on to kick off things for me as an independent screenwriter and Producer failed. I started negotiations. They stopped them…just after leading me around in circles for 6 months.

It hurts. It’s vicious. It breaks my heart a little every time it happens. It sometimes makes me jealous, and bitter towards people who are succeeding (I’m working on that!).

But, equally, I love that this feeling means I want some time, that I believe in something. It means I care about what I’m trying to do, and who I’m trying to do it with.

It makes me want to play the game, until I, and all of you, win.’

How do you guys deal with the ‘frustration game’ as my dramatic younger self called it?